Listening To: BigBang-koe wo kikasete.(let me hear your voice)

these few days at home
has been giving me a good break.

i have yet to do my homeworks

but well i think i can touch 'em later.

i woke up late this morning

though i did wake up at 5.30 all of a sudden,had a sudden moment where i couldnt breathe.

cannot sleep so just randomly took my photo album from my desk

then saw pics of my grandmother and grandfather..

i still feel so sad,i still cant believe their gone just like that.

i feel so sad, but the last time i went to japan

made me realised i did somehow belong there.

my cousin,the youngest one is the closest to me.

he is super crazy about pokemon and he plays the sport i love to watch soccer.

haha too bad i couldnt see him play that time he had a match

then my oldest cousin,which some say looks like me and i dun believe

twice i went there and she became like the older sister i never had.

we talked about japanese dramas,which i never got to do around here

and the last i went she took me for a walk with the house's dog

(which can i mention i love too haha) its nice to experience how its liek to have siblings.

how much more laughter you can have

though how much you may want to hate them

they are still you younger or older siblings

we only realise what really means to us only after their gone.

so cherish the moments to have with the people u may hate but love.

ahh im seriously getting too depressed.

i need coffee,either that or beer.

sigh.i wouldnt mind a cigarette,but it would just leave a stain in my lungs

and kill me 40 years later.

i wonder whats it like to go the wrong road?is it awesome?

or is it the same?wouldnt wanna try but just thinking.

sigh.well,

as im getting too depressed on my post

i will probably post something funny later :D

haha

well ciao people

hope u had a great 2nd of CNY and heard the SCDF siren.

haha

byez!

XOXO

p.s my cousin just got her ears pierced...wonder when i can get mine,

wondering if its pain anot..hmm...

"i wanna be free like a bird

fly in the skies

to somewhere nobody

can ever ever catch me

i dun care if i fall

cuz i noe it'll be all

i wont be lost

cuz i'll find my way

just a route to the wrong and people say me

but i dun care

cuz its just my thoughts only."