i just needed a place to vent my feelings
and where not better but this dead blog?
no one reads it so hey!im free to rant
i know its during exams time so im supposed to be not using da com like this
and i should be studying my ass off,but im not
im gonna have to pay the price
and that price will be next year...
right now my aim is just C5 for all subs
at least it will get me somewhr.
i am a perfect example of a person who does not care
does not stand for what she wants
i bet i'll get stuck with a job i wont like
but thats life rite? we dont get what we want unless we try.
but then i hear 'O' lvls and the next word that comes to mind is 'nationwide'
after that comes in the 'top schools' which makes me feel dejected.
if people my class finds the paper easy, dosent tat mean its just a breeze for them?
people like them brings da moederation curve up
but thn again i think, if i worked harder frm the start
i might've be in the top
but no i never once pushed myself harder
i kept doing things i like.
things im not supposed to do.
if i were to get top, i need to be blocked from the social world.
cut off from everything. i tired but i cant
maybe i didnt try hard enough, i'm not sure.
i think im going to disappoint alot of people.
havent i for a very long time
i dont know this year though i have 1 less subject to worry about
i feel worse and stressed.
sigh. i guess its just me. im just worried for next week,
what im gonna face aint gonna be pretty.
well i shall go sleep now. its already 1.30am.
-lets hope for a better day-