Thursday, March 17, 2011

DAY of nothingness~~

oh look! new post from me.
BE HAPPY! haha im joking
sooooo lets see, school holidays naw naw naw
i've been using the com like everyday haha
so lets see what i did these few days...

on tuesday the 3 people can my house, KMB lolz..
very impromtu. me and MQ were talking of how bored we were
and how long her game was loading
then we talk talk talk and she came over.
before that i wanted to make a drink, so i went to BPP to buy stuffs.
there, met a few classmates. waited for KA to 'wake up' and we went to her house downstairs
to wait for her. as we walked, BN say she can come so we waited for her
at a playground, slack there haha.
finally she arrived, and we walked to my place, there we play games and talk
but like only 3 hours only haha... but it was fun : ]

on wednesday, i took the time out from the super-fast world
and plugged my earphones to my mp3 and read a book for 4 hours.
back to back yes. i read a total of 2 books,
cuz in between i fell asleep for abt 5 minutes.
after that started flipping channels. nothing to watch
came home got scolded for doing nothing.. OH COME ON! ITS THE HOLIDAYS!
got pms also dun attack me mah (._.)

on thurday, today, morning woke up to an awesome weather
dragged myself out the awfully comfortable bed to get my ass
to the seat in the auditorium in skool.
reach, remedial start, kana shoot.
"what are the terms, what punishment, why the allies wanted this"
all the bombs came flying.
i seriously think the whole class thought the same thing "shit."
aish. like the question cher ask also so weird =.=
of maybe because i never like studying chapter 2.1 of history
hence BARELY even read it therefore i was totally blur in class =.="
after that was SS, my file was taken by cher to show the whole class
eh very embarrassing okay!
then she went through syllabus when she suddenly ask me and another student
"hows ur family in japan" i totally stun diao. im like "their okay" and thought,
its not my family but my relatives..
moving on then cher started lecturing again on how we shouldnt be -in short- arrogant
cuz we're doing better in all our subjects but not our mother tongue
and i seriously think i saw her staring at me. like zoom~
lolz... im not good in mother tongue nor physics and totally
not interested in both.

after SS and history went to lot 1 library taught someone humanities.
im not good at teaching as to me i believe that 1 need to write everything out
and understand it one by one through any means of method by yourself
but i tried teaching..duno if she learnt anyting or pretended to listen so yea.
this was my day lolz.nothing much, super boring
except the fact i didnt know that koreans go to library to study!
totally culture shocking haha~~

ok ok
i shall go now..i mean i did update right haha

(lolz metallic blue nails :P)
(some people very into the game haha)
("im too tall for this" MQ "heh! i see something *step* KA)
( "save me~~!!!")
(my wednesday was spent with this 2)
( sundown in skool)
(i love this pic :] its on my personal laptop haha)
(i hated doing chim)
( got bored doing chinese..lolz..i just realised my forehead is damn big =.=)

Saturday, March 12, 2011

one of my current fav songs.

English Translation:
Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

Nature has its own fury. prayers to japan.

hey bloggin here.
things are going badly everywhere now, especially somewhere close.
japan got struck with a 8.8 magnitude earthquake. not only that
the north-east of japan got a tsunami of 10m hitting on them.
it is the worst catastrophe japan has ever seen.

i heard this news like really late after about 5 hours yesterday.
i was in school studying, after that stayed back for chinese mock exam paper
(which i must add was horrible and hard that i forgot how to write my own chinese
name which is made up by the easiest characters in chinese)
after that i still had to stay back to help out at the parents-meet session
which was really tiring, or maybe cuz i was in school from 7.20 in the morning.
after the whole parents-meet i strolled towards the hall for principal's dialogue
as i went there, bry suddenly told me about it. i was shocked. though its at the north-east
it is still worrying.
when i came home and switched the tv to news, the scene was devastating.
the waters rushing, submerging the entire place into mere mud.
i was worried for my cousins and my relatives there. but it was already 11pm at night
here which meant 12am there i cant possibly call

so instead i called today. it took a while for the phone call to go through, but it did
my cousin picked up,luckily, im more comfortable talking to her. she said things
rattled a lot, but everyone was alright. however it seems my youngest cousin got
influenza. at least they werent much affected by the earthquakes. as the day passed
worser news came in like how the nuclear plant in fukushima had exploded. it is scary.
then around 5pm suddenly we got a phone call from there. i got a huge shock. when i picked it up
it was totally cracking and i thought what happened. however they called once again and
it seems everything was alright, just the satelite problem i guess.
my uncle had called and said everything was fine and not to worry.
well how to not worry 0.0 its like on every news possible!

but this is a serious problem. being an avid social studies students i HAVE to talk about this.
japan's economy was already at its worse when this disaster happened
the impact this disaster is going to bring on the japanese economy would
be very harsh. i hope that the government would really do its best to fix it.
the people are suffering already and i really pray that as days go well,
things would get better.

this is really a serious issue. and i wish everyone to be safe.
nature is something we cant predict, so we can only pray
that things dont worsen

well i should end here i still have stuffs to do like persuading my mom
to email them our address =.= i seriously wonder at times if she really cares.
since my grandparents passed away it seems like she dosent care much
although she was really devastated about what is happening.
im more of the one worried then her.
oh well, going to go back persuading her..bye..

Sunday, March 6, 2011

end of the week,start of a week.

im bloggin again cuz im friggin bored
ok im not bored, but well i have stuffs to do
but i just dont wanna do them...heh lazy pig right?

flu is still with me so i have no idea how im gonna make it
in skool tmrw.
im gonna need to force myself not to speak too much.
sigh.hope i can go though tmrw without much difficulty.
i seriously think my blog entries are stupid.
all i write about is skool,skool and more on skool.
haha nothing much going on in my life
but paper and pencils.amazing right?
people my age gets to hang out and live their life
where else im stuck here with my flu
and struggling to understand why numbers are made out of equations.
jeez.i cant wait for the day i get to actually live.
cuz right now, this life aint called living. its called slogging.

just today i was watching 2days 1night where the crew climbed
Seoraksan and to the 3rd highest peak in south korea. i was watching it
and totally felt amazed.
i also want to try climbing something like that, see a scenery so free.
so free and far. gosh how nice would it feel? how amazing the air of freedom
can be? and also the coldness...i only felt summer heat.
what is it like to feel so cold that your hands go numb?
i wanna take an airplane and fly far away
but how can i ? when this place keeps pulling me back again and again..
this is depressing
before it gets even more depressing i shall end it here..

i need some rest anyways...the medication is settling in :]
well good night people
and have a good week..
last week till march holidays :D
(though i CANT be considered as a holiday as i bet at least 3 out of the 5 days
i'll have to go back for lessons =.=)

Saturday, March 5, 2011

late post.

wow..been a supper long time since i blogged...
lets see..hmm well first things first common test is over
i basically flunked all my subjects..
well i passed most except physics..of HAD to fail me =.=
im still not sure of my humanities mark cuz i didnt go to skool on friday..
the reason? simple. im sick still want me to go to skool?
wait long debating whether not to even go to skool on monday.
but then again i went to skool today..and came back coughing like crazy again.

well its a very quiet saturday night for me.
i bet half the people i know are out there partying
but guess what im at home, did some homework
and now am using the com. lolz..epic.
later im gonna drink that sleepy medication again
and get knocked out for more then 6 hours..amazing right?
i cant wait...these few days thanks to it
i have a very good sleep..lolz.long time didnt sleep so well.

anyways schools boring as usual. i kinda really got depressed about my marks.
sigh i really dont just really disappointed in myself
i guess i must work harder? but i know i will do very very badly for my Os
knowing myself, im actually wasting a year :] ahh well what to do?
i guess imma have to try right? but i think its gonna be an epic
failure again. =.= this time is no joke..cuz those 3 months for which i didnt study
really made me loose my touch in studying..sigh

ahh well,ok i guess imma go and drink my medicines
get knocked out into dreamland again..haha
i cant wait to get out of skool..seriously.
i dont find anything fun about it. maybe im changing
i feel irritated the second i step in.
i dont find happiness in it anymore
i dont find the reason of going there anymore
i feel that everyone around me is forcing a smile
or am i just too quiet?
i feel left out and depressed.
gosh it sucks man..but hey at the end of the day
we say bye and we leave.
and im all alone again.
i guess in my life, theres only me,myself and i.

gonna go now.later people.

(all i did was flip the pic and i got this..
a total different scenary)

(a scene i came home to 1 day)

(starting to be a frequent tea drinker~~ lolz)

(a caged bird wanting to be free)

(and i thought 3 was alot..this much medication
is absurd!!)

(doggy~~ :D)

(starbucks...lolz...wanna drink it again)

(eyore took my drink...)